Apparently I've only had time for one post this month. And let's change that to I've only made time for one post this month. Life has a funny way of going a lot quicker than I ever think it will.
I don't have anything in particular that I want to write about, except maybe to mention that we've had an extremely rollercoaster-of-emotions type month. The beginning of this month started off with despair and grief so real and powerful that I wasn't sure we were going to get through it. But God is good and of course the end of the month is ending up with great hope and determination. Isn't that how it usually happens in life? We have to reach rock bottom before we can see any kind of light ahead. I am so grateful for the moments that I reach rock bottom, for the person that I realize that I can be in those moments. I am indescribably grateful for a husband who stands by me, not behind or in front of me, in those moments and always ensures me that they are just that, moments, and not permanent .
Sometimes, and let's be honest, most of the time we take for granted the biggest blessings in our lives. Any of you that really know me know that I definitely have a pessimistic side, to put it nicely. Why is it so easy to cling to negativity? On the same hand, I'm so grateful for the lessons I learn from myself because of that trial I have. I learn more and more as I get older to trust in the Lord, in my own strength, and I learn that it's okay to lean on other people. To those of you, and you know who you are, who have had heartfelt conversations with me ever in my life, but especially this last month, you mean the world to me. Relationships may be fleeting and ever-changing, but I truly believe God puts the people in our lives that we need to get through our present struggles.
One day you I will explain what is so cryptically hidden in this post, but mostly I just feel grateful and needed to remind myself that it's okay to be grateful. Until that day, stay tuned!
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